

I am so ready to move out of New Jersey. Good Bye East Coast -THE SHORE, hello to the BEACH. California here I come (or Arizona).
I try to be satisfied with what I have. I hold my baby and think...she is so happy with just the basics, food, warmth, love. Why can't I be satisfied?
Then I realize that she gets a warm, fresh bottle made when she wants it. She fusses a little and we hold her. She has warmth because she does not have to walk around in a house that is 70 degrees (it feels like 60..okay, maybe 65 because of the draft in the back door. I have needs too! Bottom line, when a baby fusses we do not give her cold or sour milk. We give her what she wants. When I fuss for the West Coast, I do not want the mid-west or Mississippi. I have needs too.

Trader Joes. I will be LOUD. They are a great grocery store, but they have left a bad taste when it comes to families and transferring. We have put in for the Arizona store twice and been left to NewJersey's $6,000 a year property taxes. And if we want to move back west we have to demote and pay for it!! And that may take a year! We have put in a decade here and commuted a dreadful year to North Jersey. (this was when my husband had to rent a bedroom for a year and come home on the weekends, this was right after I had my fourth child and also the year my migraines began and have not stopped).
And today, Kaylin saw a strange man looking in our front window. He had long hair and a black hat. She came in screaming and crying. Okay, I think we need to move! I am done with jug handles (the thrilling left hand turn done to the right??) I am done with crazy neighbors sending hate letters, (I'll explain that later), I am done with lone holidays and inviting pretend "cousins". I am done explaining to my kids that "yes, that is what it is like to have cousins". I want a Grandma and Grandpa. I tried the surrogate ones, they SUCK.
So, While I have served my time with a full heart, I am done. Done with tacit remarks, thoughts, and arguments.
3 comments:
I completly agree. Put on a stamp and mail it the the big guy. We would love to be that grandma and grandpa. We love you
oh, i am so sorry hang in there and we will keep all of you in our prayers. We love you and would love to have all of you back closer to us too. Take care amd we miss and love you. Love JIll
Let's make this happen. We'll put in our requests to the BIG GUY.
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